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How to ask about someone’s chronic illnesses/disabilities

Humans are naturally curious beings so when we come across something we aren’t familiar with its only natural we want to ask questions and learn more. The problem however is that sometimes when dealing with sensitive topics questions can come across as nosey, insensitive or even down right rude.

As someone with a long history of chronic illness I have experienced many years of questions and curiosities. For the most part people mean no harm, but when you’re dealing with this on a regular basis it can become overwhelming. In this post I’m hoping to help navigate asking questions about chronic illnesses and disabilities and what not to ask. Pease remember I am speaking from my own personal experiences and preferences so always remember other people with chronic illnesses/disabilities may have different opinions.

* Always check its ok to ask about someone’s condition first.

I always prefer it when someone asks me if its ok for them to ask a question/questions before they begin asking. If someone just blurts out a question it can feel insensitive and puts me on the spot whereas if they ask permission first it gives me the option to say no, or to put boundaries in place for my own comfort.

* Ask the person if there are any subjects that are off limits

As we are all individuals, we will all have different levels of comfort when answering questions about our illnesses or disabilities. These comfort levels may even change day to day so it’s always really helpful if someone asks what my boundaries are and respects them.

* Don’t ask a question if you’re not prepared to deal with the answer.

I have lost count of the amount of times someone has asked me a question about my situation and then been totally unable to deal with the answer. This leaves me feeling misunderstood and alone. If you can’t deal with the worst case scenario answer then just keep the question to yourself.

* Don’t ask about prognosis without express permission.

Prognosis can be a really difficult topic. While its natural to want to know what someone’s future may look like, its a very difficult subject to talk about and there’s a chance the person doesn’t even have a full answer. If you absolutely must ask, always give a warning shot and wait for permission. Do not approach a stranger with this question.

* Don’t respond with unsolicited advice

Due to the fact I am so open about my conditions I often get people asking me more information about my illnesses including treatments and symptoms. The questions themselves don’t usually bother me, but people often can’t resist giving me unsolicited advice when I answer. This actually puts me off answering questions in the first place and can feel as though people think I’m not taking care of myself.

* Respect boundaries no matter when they are introduced

Boundaries are super important when dealing with sensitive topics. I often find that if I answer one question people think I will answer all questions even if they’re really personal or if its the middle of the night. People often get offended if I say no to answering more questions, especially if they have seen me talk about my illness on a social media profile. The person with the illness gets to decide how much they say, when they say it and who they say it to. It is entirely their right to change their mind about sharing, or to only want to share at certain times.

* Don’t make it about you

Although hearing about someone’s illnesses or situation can be difficult its important that you don’t make the situation about you by instantly talking about how it makes you feel or becoming excessively upset. If you have an established relationship with the person and/or its someone you are close to then it may be appropriate to talk about how the situation impacts you when the sufferer is ready to do that or once they have finished talking about their own feelings. If its someone you don’t know or you’re only having a one off conversation then its better to attempt to control your response and maybe talk about your feelings with someone else who isn’t impacted by the situation.

*Only offer help if you can follow through

It’s natural to want to help someone who is suffering, but sometimes we make offers and promises we can’t keep which can lead to tricky situations. If you’re going to offer help, please make sure it’s something that you can stick to. If you can’t offer practical help then a listening ear is often just as valuable. If you can give practical help, it’s usually best to ask the person for examples of the type of help they may need or want, rather than making assumptions or doing things without checking first.

*Don’t suddenly change the subject

If you have asked someone about their illnesses or someone is telling you about their situation, do not just suddenly change the subject. I have lost count of the amount of times someone has abruptly changed the subject when I am trying to open up to them. When someone is trying to talk about a hard situation it can make them feel extremely vulnerable and when they are cut off or the subject is changed mid conversation it can make them feel dismissed, unimportant and as though you just aren’t interested in what they have to say.

10 Things I wish everyone knew about life with chronic illnesses

There are many aspects of chronic illnesses that you will only truly understand if you actually deal with one yourself . This can make it difficult for those of us dealing with these illnesses to integrate into society and maintain jobs, social lives, intimate relationships and more. Here are 10 things I wish everyone knew about living with chronic illnesses.

1 – There’s no time off.

When you have a chronic illness its a 24/7 365 day job. There’s no putting in holiday leave, no baby sitters or task sharing and there are no allowances for holidays or special events. We have to deal with our illnesses where-ever we are, no matter what we’re doing or who we are with. Even at night, when the world is sound asleep we are often up late taking meds, managing pain and other symptoms, trying to maintain hydration, adjusting positions and keeping our temperature just right. It’s exhausting and its lonely, no matter how good your support system is it is impossible to fully communicate how difficult it is to live with these things 24/7. Burn out is common among people with long histories of chronic illnesses and its really not surprising when you think about it, so give us a little grace if we’re a little cranky or we slip with our household duties, we’re working a full job just existing.

2 – Doctors don’t know everything

So many times over the years I have heard “why didn’t you go to the doctor” or “you should get a different doctor, you should be better by now” or words to that effect. Here’s a ground breaking fact – doctor’s don’t know everything! That’s right! Doctors are humans just like the rest of us and it is impossible for them to have answers for every problem and every ailment. There is a lot about the human body that we still don’t understand yet which is complicated by the fact that they can’t ethically examine the human body while people are alive if there’s a chance it will cause harm. As a result, there are a lot of things doctors can’t cure, they can’t always just write a prescription and make everything better. The best doctors I have had are the ones that acknowledge this, they know they don’t have all the answers and they don’t make promises that they know they cannot keep, instead they will talk to me about the options we do have and why they think each option is good or bad. They make sure that I understand why they can’t make everything better, and work with me to ensure the best quality of life possible while trying to figure out a long term plan.

3 – Sleep doesn’t fix fatigue

We’ve all been tired, whether we’ve pulled an all nighter getting college work done, stayed up late chatting to a new beau or lost sleep to a loud neighbourhood party we all know what sleep depravation feels like. We also know that usually the answer is a good nap followed by a few really good night’s sleep. Fatigue is different, fatigue is feeling like the simplest tasks are 100 times more difficult, something as simple as going upstairs becomes a mammoth task, walking for 5 minutes feels like walking a marathon. For many people with chronic illnesses fatigue is a well known friend, just existing with a chronic illness burns more energy than existing in a healthy body, simple tasks take extra effort and we often have the double whammy of disrupted sleep due to medication or symptoms. For us, a nap or a few good nights sleep won’t help, we could sleep for a week straight and still wake up feeling exhausted. What can help is pacing, breaking tasks up into smaller, more manageable chunks, only doing a certain amount in a day, taking regular breaks and staying on top of food and drink. If you want to help someone with fatigue, taking some tasks off their plate may be a good way to go, you could offer to cook them a meal, take the rubbish out, watch their kids or even offer a relaxing activity such as a movie night so they get a chance to hang out and rest while feeling included. What really helps is asking what the person needs and doing it without judgement.

4 – Unsolicited advice isn’t helpful

Whenever someone is sick and suffering it is totally natural to want to help them, to want to fix things for them and make their lives easier. Any good person hates to see the suffering of anyone else, especially people they care about and this drives them to give anything they can, including advice. Unfortunately this advice isn’t always wanted and in some cases can be distressing and even dangerous. If someone has been dealing with a chronic illness for any length of time there is a good chance that they have already tried every reasonable step to help with both the underlying illness and the symptoms. Dealing with these illnesses is exhausting and isolating, so imagine what it’s like when everyone you talk to has an opinion on what they’re doing and how they should be managing things. If you really, really want to give advice, ask the person if they would like to hear your thoughts first, for example if you’ve heard of something that might help nausea, you could say “I saw a new way of dealing with nausea the other day, would you like to hear about it?”. If they say no, then listen! Don’t continue to push your advice if they don’t want it. Just as importantly, if they say that something won’t work for them or that they already know what to do, then please just believe them. They aren’t saying it to be difficult and it’s not that they don’t trust you or don’t want to get better, they just know their body and their situation better than you do and have a good idea of what will and wont help.

5 – Rejecting an offer of help isn’t personal

It’s absolutely natural to want to help someone who is struggling but sometimes there isn’t anything you can do that will actually help the situation. There are many reasons why someone may say no to an offer of help, they may already know that there isn’t actually anything that will help in that moment, for example they may already have all the help that they need, or they may need help that is of a more personal nature than they feel comfortable asking you for. Over the years I have had people react very negatively if I have turned down an offer of help and people take it extremely personally, but it’s never ever intended that way. If you really want to help, asking the person what they really need is a good start, if there’s nothing they need, then you could ask if there’s anything they *want* to do that they wouldn’t normally ask for like a fun trip or yummy food that isn’t just the basics. If this still isn’t needed/wanted at that time, you can let them know that if anything comes up then you will be willing to help even if time has passed.

6 – Not all illnesses/disabilities are visible

This is something I really wish more people would understand. There are many disabilities and illnesses that are not visible on the outside. For many people with chronic illnesses it’s impossible to tell just how sick they are from their appearance. Many times I have had people tell my I don’t look sick or even that I “look better” while I was actually at my sickest. Even during months of endless hospital stays, being unable to eat without being sick, constant pain and exhaustion I had people tell me how well I look. I have been judged so many times for sitting in a disabled seat on the bus and not getting up for someone older than me because people just assumed I was being lazy, they couldn’t see my immune system destroying my intestine or my joints feeling like they were on fire. Always remember that it’s impossible to truly know what is happening under the surface and someone may be fighting a battle that you know nothing about.

7 – Using a mobility aid does not mean you can ask me private medical information

In the last 6-7 years I have gone from using no mobility aids, to using a folding walking stick, to using crutches, a wheelchair and most recently a rollator. I currently alternate between the later three depending on how bad my symptoms are and what I am going to be doing. For some reason people see these and think it is appropriate to ask me why I am using them. I understand curiosity, and in some contexts I don’t mind answering questions, but when I am minding my own business waiting for the bus, or trying to pay for something in a shop, I would rather not be stared at and quizzed about my medical conditions. I am just trying to get to my appointments or get my shopping like everyone else, and
I would like to do it without being made to feel like some sort of spectacle.

8 – Having fun doesn’t mean we’re better

When you have chronic illnesses and you’re always in pain or feeling rotten, you learn to have fun regardless. Of course there are days where you have no choice but to stay in bed or crash on the sofa, but if we waited to feel well before doing fun things we would waste our whole lives. People with chronic illnesses become very good at having a good time even when feeling horrendous, we learn to pace ourselves, we learn to plan for days for events to allow us to enjoy them, we learn to clear our diaries for days or weeks before and after so we can recover. We also learn to find joy in the smallest things and in moments that most find insignificant. We can make memories sat on the sofa laughing about silly things, or at a music gig , or even in a hospital waiting room. We don’t take any chance at joy for granted.

9 – One good day / week/ month doesn’t mean we’re better

Many chronic illnesses and disabilities fluctuate, it’s quite common for people with a chronic condition to experience periods of less symptoms accompanied by periods of worsening symptoms known as a flare up. For many, the occasional good day/week/month is refreshing and a nice break, but it doesn’t mean we’re all better. For one thing, a good day for us is often still what most would consider bad, we are often still in pain or fatigued etc, and we still have to be careful about what we do so that we don’t make things worse for ourselves when a flare up does start. For another, we know that the good day won’t last forever, we know that the symptoms will be coming back just like before, so even if we get lucky and get a good stretch of time before the other shoe drops, we know that it WILL drop eventually and we have to be constantly prepared.

10 – Pity parties are allowed

We don’t want you to feel sorry for us or pity us, but we also don’t want to feel like we have to be brave and strong all the time. Being constantly sick sucks, it’s hard always being in pain and knowing there isn’t a way to stop it, it’s challenging being reliant on medications, devices and even other people to be able to live. It’s exhausting being on a never ending ride of meds, hospital appointments, phone calls and self advocacy. We are allowed to throw ourselves the occasional pity party and it’s not OK to shame us for it or make us feel like we’re weak or like we should be handling things differently. The key to this is that it’s occasional, and that it’s driven by us and not others. If it starts to be a regular thing and your loved one can’t seem to find any joy in life, it’s a good idea to just offer them some extra support and love. If it’s just occasional and they can still find joy and things to be happy about, then let them be, join in if they would like that, and pity party all night.

So that’s my 10. This is all from my own point of view and experiences of course so other people may feel differently. There are many more things I could add to this list, but these are the ones that come to mind most freely. If you’ve read this far I hope it’s got you thinking a little about life with chronic illnesses. If it’s resonated with you consider sharing it with a friend and think about it the next time you interact with a chronically sick loved one.

World IBD Day 2024

Sunday 19 May 2024 is world IBD day,

To mark this important day I thought I would talk about IBD, the main types, symptoms, diagnosis and treatments.

IBD stands for Inflammatory Bowel Disease, it is a group of conditions that cause inflammation and damage to the digestive system. There are a few different types of IBD with the main two being Crohn’s disease and Ulcerative Colitis . The exact cause of Crohn’s disease is unknown, but it is thought that there is an auto-immune or auto-inflammatory component. One train of thought is that the immune system reacts to something in the gut – possibly bacteria- and starts to attack it, causing damage, research into the causes and mechanisms of IBD is currently on going and new theories are coming out all the time.

Crohns disease

Crohn’s disease can impact anywhere in the digestive tract from the mouth to the anus, it causes inflammation, ulceration, scarring and damage to all layers of the bowel, and it can cause complications such as fistulas which are abnormal tracts between one part of the body and another, such as between the bowel wall and the abdominal wall. In Crohn’s disease the damage can be sporadic, there can be patches of inflammation and patches of healthy tissue, which means that if you looked at only a small section of tissue, you might miss the disease and think it is not present.

Ulcerative colitis

Ulcerative Colitis (UC) impacts the large intestine (known as the Colon) and the rectum. Small ulcers develop on the lining of the colon which can bleed and produce pus. In ulcerative colitis the inflammation is continuous, and it only affects the inner most lining of the colon.

Indeterminate colitis

In about 10% of people with IBD, features of both UC and Crohn’s are present, making it impossible to distinguish between the two types of IBD, in these patients a diagnosis of inderminate colitis is made.

Symptoms

Symptoms vary from person to person and even between different flare ups in the same person. The most well known and more common symptoms include

Stomach pain
Nausea
Vomiting
Weight loss or weight gain
Bloating
Diarrhoea
Nutrient deficiencies
Bleeding from the gastrointestinal tract

While these symptoms may seem obvious for a digestive disease, there are other symptoms that may seem less obvious and these include

Joint pain
Fatigue
Eye inflammation
Mouth ulcers
Osteoporosis
Skin issues

Diagnosis

Because the symptoms mimic so many other conditions IBD can be hard to diagnose, unfortunately it often takes people a few years to get a proper diagnosis . Getting a diagnosis usually starts with speaking to a GP and getting some basic blood tests and a stool sample should be taken to look for blood, inflammation and signs of infection, there may also be a physical examination of your stomach to check for any other signs of issues,

After this, if the GP deems it appropriate, they will refer you to a gastroenterologist which is a specialist in the digestive system who may order further testing including an MRI and/or a colonoscopy or endoscopy. The best way to get a firm diagnosis is to get a biopsy of the intestine which can be done during a colonoscopy. The biopsy can help determine if you have Crohn’s or UC or if there is something else going on. Sometimes these tests will come back clear despite continuing symptoms. If this is the case, you can ask for other testing such as a barium meal follow through or a white cell scan which is a specialist scan where the white blood cells are tagged with radiation and a special scanner is used to follow them. If the white cells are seen to be concentrating in a specific area it can indicate inflammation which can be used to help with diagnosis.

Whatever tests you have, don’t give up if you are still having symptoms and feeling unwell, it’s important to stand up for yourself and not to let anyone put you off, getting a diagnosis is important for any illness, and its not ok for anyone to be left suffering.

Treatments

There is no cure for IBD, so treatment aims to control the disease and help to improve quality of life by getting symptoms under control.

Steroids

Corticosteroids like prednisolone or budesonide are used during the acute “flare” phase of the illness. A flare up is when the disease is active and causing more symptoms than the day to day baseline and steroids control these flare ups by reducing the inflammation in the digestive tract. Although they are usually very helpful and can get symptoms under control very quickly, steroids are not a long term option as they come with some quite significant risks including bone thinning, mood disturbances and the possibility of steroid dependancy.

Liquid diets

Liquid diets can be used at any age but they are most commonly used in children to give the gut a chance to rest and heal, they can also be used to try to help someone gain weight and nutrition if they have become malnourished as a result of their illness. Liquid diets use a very special form of formula food, which can be partly or fully predigested and may be highly calorific. They are tough to deal with, but they are a very low risk way of treating the inflammation and pain associated with IBD.

5 ASAs ( aminosalicylates)

These drugs have an anti-inflammatory component and they are chemically similar to aspirin, they dampen down the inflammatory process and allow the damaged tissue to heal. They are generally very safe drugs and they are often used as a first line treatment, especially in cases of IBD that aren’t very advanced or severe. The downside is they have limited effectiveness, so they aren’t appropriate for people with advanced or severe disease.

Immune suppressants

Immune suppressants work by calming down the immune system in the hope of stopping the damage to the digestive tract. The downside to immune suppressants is that they leave you more prone to infection and can have some serious side effects including liver problems, it’s important to have regular blood tests before and during treatment.

Biologics

Biologics are medications that work on the immune system and modulate it. Different Biologics work on different parts of the immune system, infliximab and adalimumab for example are both anti-tnf medications. Biologics block the part of the immune system that they are targeted at, with the aim of stopping any further inflammation from occurring. Like immune suppressants, Biologics come with a higher risk of catching infections and difficulty fighting them, they can also come with a higher risk of some types of cancer and they can lead to issues with organs such as the liver. Most Biologics are delivered by infusions or injections, the injections are usually self administered at home by the patient.

Surgery

Sometimes medication isn’t enough to stop the IBD from spreading or causing complications like abscesses and surgery can become necessary. There are a few types of surgeries that may be performed with IBD including bowel resections where a part of the bowel is removed and the healthy ends are joined together, stoma surgery where a part of the bowel is removed and the end is pulled through an opening in the abdomen, abscess lancing and removal and fistula repair surgery.

Worst case scenario

Although thankfully quite rare, people can die or be left with serious life long impacts from IBD and its complications . People with Crohn’s disease may experience a perforated bowel, which is a medical emergency or there may be complications related to surgery done to treat the IBD. People with IBD are more at risk of cancer, and some of the treatments also increase the risk of some cancers such as skin cancers, many of the treatments also reduce the function of the immune system which means patients are more susceptible to infections and may have more difficulty fighting off viruses like Covid and the flu.

This is why we need research for a cure and kinder more reliable treatments. Current treatments are much better than we had even 10 -20 years ago, but they don’t help everyone and they do have the potential to fail, and they all have potentially serious side effects. If you would like to help, just sharing information about IBD can be really helpful, the more people who know about IBD and its signs and symptoms, the better chance we have of getting people diagnosed early and stopping the worst of the damage. Increasing awareness will also increase funding as people will be more aware of the need to fundraise, and doctors becoming more aware will mean people are treated earlier and more efficiently.

I don’t believe I need to be “healed”.. here’s why.

When you have been dealing with chronic illnesses for any length of time you inevitably come across people who think you need to be healed/cured/fixed in some way. This can come from all types of people, there are people who think that if you’re a good Muslim, Christian, Jew, Hindu etc then you will constantly be praying for healing. There are people who think that you can’t possibly be OK with being sick or disabled and think that you should be constantly seeking cures, trying everything no matter how extreme or how little benefit it will actually have. Whenever I am faced with this I give my honest response – I don’t believe I need to be healed, and I’m going to attempt to explain why in this post.

Before I get to the explanation I just want to say that if you’re someone that really wants to be healed, that needs to hold on to the hope of healing to cope or to get through, or someone that believes in trying every remedy possible to try and make things better then that’s absolutely ok. I’m not judging you and I respect you. All I am asking is that you give people like me the same respect and accept that we have accepted our situations.

One of the hardest things about dealing with a diagnosis of a chronic illness is learning to accept that you will be living with it for the rest of your life. It can take months or even years to stop hoping you’ll wake up one day and it will all have disappeared. It often takes a lot of processing and hard work to finally be ok with yourself as a disabled or chronically ill person. I have been in some form of pain since I was around 12 years old. I have a long list of diagnoses and each one adds another layer of things I have to learn to live with. Constantly being told by society that I need to be fixed or healed makes that acceptance so much harder as it can make it feel like you’re not good enough as you are, or that you should somehow be making more effort to get better, and you are failing if you don’t.

For me, accepting that my illnesses are permanent and that I am not going to suddenly get better has actually helped me to enjoy my life in the here and now instead of putting things off. If you’re constantly waiting to get better you can end up putting off experiences and relationships because you think you’ll have chance when you’re better and that those experiences will be more valuable as a healthy person. I can say with certainty that having chronic illnesses makes so many of my experiences so much richer. I have learnt to make the most of every moment that I get. My illnesses teach me everyday to make memories from the simplest moments and I think that as I go through life they will continue to teach me more, so while I don’t want to be in pain and of course its hard, I wouldn’t ever give up the perspective having chronic illnesses have given me.

In addition to all of this, I believe that having a diverse population with a verity of experiences, abilities, needs and perspectives is good for society. Change happens when people from all walks of life are being represented and heard, without disabled people we would loose a huge range of experiences and thought processes. There are many inventions that wouldn’t exist without disabled people. Typewriters we originally designed by an Italian inventor who noticed that his friend was unable to hand-write letters because of her blindness. In 1608, Pellegrino Turri developed the first ever type-writer with metal arms and raised characters which allowed his blind friend to write. The inventor also invented carbon paper as a way to provide ink for the type writer. Other inventions originally developed for disabled people include Electric Toothbrushes, kitchen tools such as OXO good grips, speech to text recognition apps, fidget spinners, dropped curbs, bendy straws and audio books. This list is no where near exhaustive but provides good examples of products inspired by disabilities that have become integral parts of many peoples lives. Without the difficulties that come with disabilities we wouldn’t be driven to find solutions which would likely result in a vast decrease in innovation.

I also believe that having a diverse range of experiences in society helps to increase empathy and feelings of community which is really important for those wishing to experience and spread Gods love. It also takes a huge amount of faith to continue believing in God and his love while experiencing chronic and incurable illnesses, this type of faith is unending and cannot be rocked, meaning that those with chronic illnesses are a very valuable example of what faith can really do.

The agony of waiting in chronic illness.

Life with chronic illnesses is full of ups and downs, there are so many difficult moments and experiences, so many days that don’t go to plan and things you wish you could change. One of the most difficult aspects for me is the constant waiting and being in the darl about what will happen next. At some point everyone with a chronic illness will experience the agony of waiting.

In my case, it feels like I started waiting when I was 12 years old and never really stopped. Waiting for appointments, tests, diagnoses, treatments, results, improvements and declines, it all takes its toll.

Most recently I spent two years waiting for a neurology appointment after my original neurologist prescribed a treatment and then didn’t contact me again. During the period of waiting I began to suffer an increase in headaches and began to suffer with chronic cluster headaches. By the time I finally got to speak to my new neurologist I had been suffering with chronic cluster headaches for around a year and was really in need of a break.

The outcome of that appointment was a course of steroids and an increase in my preventative treatment in the hopes of settling the headaches and preventing a return. After over a week of waiting for the steroid prescription I finally started treatment and got a much needed break. Unfortunately the headaches came back as soon as I stopped the steroids and the cycle of waiting started again. This time I was waiting to see if the headaches would settle or if the extra dose of preventative would kick in.

When the opposite happened, I decided to call my neurologists secretary and she offered to ask him to call me. More waiting ensued. Thankfully he called me the next day so I wasn’t waiting long, and we set up a plan.

Now, a week later I’m waiting for that plan to kick in to action. I am currently waiting to hear about getting oxygen delivered to take during attacks, I am told that it usually takes days for this to happen, but so far there’s no sign. A week may not seem like very long but these headaches are excruciating and every day without the oxygen is an extra day of suffering that isn’t necessary. I am hoping I will hear something soon and get some relief, but it there is just no way to know and there’s really nothing else I can do but wait.

While I’m waiting I know that the phone could ring at any time, so I have to keep my phone with me and on loud so that I don’t miss it, I have a million and one questions about the set up process, how much longer it might take, who to talk to if the oxygen isn’t delivered soon, where to store the oxygen, if the delivery person can even put the oxygen in my bedroom or if they’re allowed to carry it upstairs or not and no one seems to be able to answer me. The need to be constantly available means I can’t ever fully switch off because I need to be able to answer their questions at a moments notice and this is all while dealing with extreme pain, made all the more difficult by the knowledge that there is something that could help right now but for some reason I have to wait longer.

I am also waiting for a nerve block injection to hopefully give me a few weeks or even months headache free. Again, I have no idea how long the waiting list is, so it might be a few months before I get this treatment or it could be a matter of weeks. All I can do is try my best to deal with the pain in the mean time.

To someone outside the chronic illness community it might not sound like a big deal, but this isn’t an isolated situation. I would estimate that I spend around 200 days a year waiting for appointments, phone calls, tests, test results, procedures, prescriptions, medications to work and all sorts of other medical admin. It is so exhausting constantly being in waiting mode, never knowing what will happen next and I think its massively underestimated. The NHS is an amazing system, but communication with patients about how long things will take really needs to be improved. There needs to be less onus on the patient to always chase and ask for information, there needs to be more information about dealing with conditions while waiting for interventions and I think there is a real need for patients to have access to someone to talk to while waiting for the answers and treatments they so desperately need.